Browsing Category: "Life and Journey"

Hiding My Emotions

Every morning I always wait for the Kris TV to be aired at 9:30 a.m. I just love all the topics she got there, and this morning they were talking about single moms and such. I wasn’t able to follow their conversation but I could hear what they were talking about. 
When I was still a single mom with my eldest daughter. I always taught her to be firm and strong and be independent. When I have problems and I wanted to cry out loud, I would hide it from her because I know it will double her the pain and that proved one day, when I can’t help but to cry and she saw it. She hugs me tight, she doesn’t say any words but I know she cried. I even saw her cried alone; I know she was hurting with seeing me crying. From then on, I was being very careful with my emotions, with my feelings and with my day-to-day struggles. She doesn’t deserve to feel all the pain that I had, she is young and vibrant so she deserves to have a happy life. 

Thought To Work

There are times that I thought of sending my application to one of the call centers here. I really missed working and I really missed taking calls from various states. I feel like I am becoming so boring and dull by not being productive, I always depending on my husband’s income, I sometimes thought I need also to contribute for our expenses. My day-to-day expenses is getting huge, I could not believe how much thousands would I spend for the whole month. I am just thankful that my husband did not complain at all, but even though I am not wasting his money out of nothing, I still can’t help to be guilty. I really feel like I am being useless. Although my husband keeps on telling me that I am not because I am the one who’s taking good care of my kids. How I wish, when the kids already grows up, there are still companies that would accept me and would eventually hire me. 


Have you ever felt once in your life that it seems like the whole world is tumbling down on you? And you would question, why me?
My life was not always a bed of roses, of course I often encounter hardships and storms in life that sometimes I would like it to stop, no life, no breathing, if I have a wand, I would like sway it in the air and freeze everything but of course we can’t do that right?
We do have our own problem, I am just lucky because I can share it to my eldest although she won’t understand but I know she gives me her sympathy. And that I have a husband who is always listening to me even how depressing I may sound.
But with all our complaints about, why our life has to be like this, while we want it to be like that. Why don’t we have all the wealth in the world so everything can be just easy for us? With all your questions do you ever realize that someone, somewhere in this world, one suffers the most than you are actually dealing right now?
You may not know, somebody loses their arms or maybe legs today in the hospital, or someone lose a person he/she ever loved, or a child became an orphan that instant.
Do you ever wonder how they will be able to cope up after the incident?
Some could not accept it but some just learn how to manage the life that they have now, even how different it is from their life that they had before.
Life is just so mysterious; we will never know what is ahead of us. But whatever it is, we just have to be strong. I don’t know how, because I even could not say I am it is just so difficult to live a life that is so new to you, a life that you are not used to.
And the best thing to do is to pray harder that the life you are enjoying right now will not be taken from you, that it will always be forever to you.

Girl’s Talk : Cheesy!

My husband and I are too miles apart from each other, I guess it is not new to everyone else here who keeps on reading my blogs. I am still worried right now and I hope on Saturday this will be gone. I can’t yet to tell everyone here what it is all about. Well, that’s me I keep it to myself until it is resolved or until it is alright. And when I am stuck with these thoughts, with this feeling I just can’t write or say a word that is relevant for any topic, but I hope the pictures below will justify the theme for today. CHEESY, MUSHY, SWEETY that is!
First date together!

When our little love bug arrives
My life and everything!

In love and happy
but he was asleep. LOL
I miss you hon!