Growing Up

My eldest daughter is growing up so fast now, the last thing I know she was just a little toddler running back and forth in our living room, hugging me and kissing me all the time. Saying I love you Ma very often. I am not saying that she is not telling me that she loves me at all, not most of the time though but at least she said it sometimes.

When we had a studio shoots last Sunday and when we decide which picture to pick up. I notice the changes of my eldest daughter, she is so grown up with that picture and she bloomed as if she is already a teenager. Well, that reminds me, that I am getting older already few years from now I would have a girl here that won’t bring bulky bags, a lot of books, and would always be looking in the mirror even she only have to buy a cooking oil in the sari sari store.

She looks absolutely like me, her being reminded me of myself when I was just her age and I am so excited of her growing up. I am sure she will have a lot of adventures that would come along her way yet I am so scared of how the days rolling so fast. Something in me wanted to hold back the years when she was just so fragile and delicate but I guess we have to face it that sometimes we have to let our kids grow for them to face the real world. Ready or not we are only here to be their guide and a shoulder so when they are wrong of choosing their path, we are there to listen and teach them again to stand, to be brave to battle their own fights in life.

I so love Mj that even sometimes I scolded her and give her punishments, I hope she would remember not the pain of it but I hope she would remember me as a Mom who cares and love her a lot, a Mom who only wanted her to be the best person she can ever be, a Mom who only wanted her to carry the lessons that I taught so when she is ready to face the future she would be the person that she wanted to be.

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